Category Archives: Uncategorized

The last few months have been full of pain. Every single Tuesday, I log onto my virtual therapy session ready to discover more. In the last 5-6 weeks, I’ve been able to recall memories and/or identify beliefs/patterns. This past Tuesday, I went into therapy with extreme neck/shoulder/upper back pain. My therapist asked “how are you?”Continue reading “EMDR & Pain”

On 05/30/2019, I went to my first appointment with my current therapist. I had been to 5 different therapist. None of which lasted over 3 months. I was unemployed and looking for change. I knew I had so much to unpack, and I knew I couldn’t do it alone. After going to five therapists, IContinue reading “My First Year of Therapy”

I’ve taken a long break from my blog. Life has been pretty hectic. When I started therapy, I had a plan. I even had a timeline. I realized that neither would work. During the course of this blog, I set out to document and share my therapy experience. I’ve come to discover that my therapyContinue reading “Welcome Back!”

On April 1, 2019, I woke up like any other day. Alarm went off by 5:30am, and I got dressed to head to work. It was a cool Monday morning. Going into work was like every other day. There was loads of traffic and a real sense of dread. I remember getting to work andContinue reading “A Year Later…”

I sit across from my therapist. I’m telling her about my relationship with my family. She looks back at me confusion taking over her facial expressions. I feel confused myself. She points out the disconnect between my body language, tone, and the event I’m sharing. According to my therapist, I look completely disconnected from theContinue reading “Anger Rising”

For my first post of the year, I wanted to focus on my spirituality and how it relates to my trauma. As stated in previous posts, I grew up in a catholic household. It was never something I related to, or connected to. I knew there was something else out there for me. The limitationsContinue reading “Spirituality & Trauma”

As I write this, my thoughts are racing. Why am I here? Why did you accept this job? Are the kittens ok? Is Dobby ok? Is this all there is? Run. Stay. Scream. Smile. Breathe. In the last month, my internal state has been utter chaos. From being unhappy in my own reality to havingContinue reading “Chaos Within”

Growing up, I was obsessed with Sleeping Beauty. It was my favorite book and movie. I don’t remember much of my childhood, but I remember going to my elementary school library and borrowing Sleeping Beauty. I also remember asking to watch it on tv whenever it was on. If I’m honest, it wasn’t Aurora thatContinue reading “Sleeping Beauty? Give Me Maleficent…”

I don’t like setting New Years resolutions, but I do like setting goals for the year. I find that it helps keep me focused. Next year, we’re going into a new decade, so I feel it extra important to set some goals. When I work with goals, I tend to get impatient. I want toContinue reading “My 2020 Goals”

Yesterday, I had someone ask me out on a date. I initially declined, but I decided to agree. It’s made me ponder my dating life, so I decided to put in into writing. For those of you who’ve known me for a long time, you know I was a bit of a serial dater. ThereContinue reading “Not Dating in the Midst of Healing”